On August 7, 2015, my album, "10 Songs of Pain" will be released. It has been a long time coming. I started the journey more depressed than I have ever been in my life. They say that time heals all wounds. I don't know if that is true, but it gave me inspiration to write some songs that I put together with older songs and it ended up my new album.
At the beginning of my journey, I was playing guitar in a rock trio called "The Providence Riots". The band itself had been around in different lineups for a few years. In this (which would be the final lineup), I was the last original member. Besides playing guitar, I sang and wrote all the songs. In other words, I was in creative control. However, all wasn't well. Although we were a pretty good band, all I wanted was out. I just wasn't happy with it. It wasn't enough, nothing made sense with it. It became a major drag. The only positive thing about it is that I started to write and play some of the songs that are on this album.
A trip to Europe gave me a break from the band, but my unhappiness with the band was overshadowed by another unhappiness that overtook everything.
I spent a week there wandering the streets like a lost soul. I spent a lot of time in Internet Cafe's, sending horrible emails to my friends. But while wandering, I started thinking about songs and the idea to make a record became an idea that wouldn't leave my head. The thing was, I didn't want the band involved.
I got to Watch some Eastern European music shows on TV. They weren't to my liking. The idea to make a record became even stronger because I wanted to Rock Europe like it had never been rocked before!
I came home a bit of a mess. The first thing that I did was quit the band. That gave me a bit of relief. But I was becoming unglued. I felt music would be my only relief.
I decided to start playing at open mic nights again. The only one that I knew about was done at a place called "The Everyman Bistro" in Providence hosted by my friend Joe Auger. I have known Joe Auger since I was eighteen years old. He has done sound for my past bands and recorded me two times before. He is a master singer/songwriter and a fantastic producer.
I wandered into the Everyman Bistro on a cold and rainy autumn night. I hadn't seen him for a while so after we caught up I basically said, "You must record me!" He said that he was really busy and that perhaps several months from then he might be able to. I understood, but didn't know what I was going to do. As we were talking he started asking me questions about what I wanted to do. I said, "I want to call the album 10 Songs of Pain and on the cover a photo of me doing this!" I then smiled a goofy grin and gave a thumbs up sign! We all laughed but the idea became intriguing. By the end of the night, Joe kind of agreed to do this project. The first thing that I needed to do was to give him a cassette (yes a cassette, remember those?) of the songs I was interested in recording.
At this time I had re-worked some of the older songs and wrote some new ones. I recently bought a capo. I had never owned one and once I started to use it I came up with music ideas. The lyrics came from stuff that I was singing in my head and the way I was feeling about everything going and not going on with my life.
In one night, I recorded a bunch of songs on a shitty old tape recorder that I had lying around. I couldn't untangle the wire